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I’m super ADHD, among other things, and I have a lot of trouble completing tasks in the order in which they should be completed. My brain is either just a jumble of way too many ideas all at the same time, or a big tangled mess. I’ll fret over tiny details before I even have the big picture! I have about 100 checklists from books, websites, and magazines of things I should do and the order in which I should do them, but I still can’t seem to get some key things done. I love making lists, but I’m terrible at following them. Case in point…

9 Reasons Why I’m Failbriding

1. We still need an officiant. I am so scared of a “no” that I haven’t even asked either of our current candidates. I haven’t been a regular church-goer since I was in high school, so I’ve convinced myself no one will marry us. Go figure.
2. Our engagement shoot with Matt Miller is on November 8th, and I still haven’t sent him any inspiration shots. (He told me to send him any shots that I loved if I wanted to. This was a little over a month ago). It seems like JP and I never sit down to look at them, or I just avoid it. I also have a tendency to over-love things. I have a folder on my desktop with about 100 engagement shots that I apparently love. I’m not going to send him all of those.
3. I need to decide on what our invitation suite will look like. Because I’m a control freak, and an art-person, I decided that I would handle all of our paper goods. Apparently I forgot that I over-analyze and obsess over regular projects and didn’t take into account how super-crazily-neurotic I would be about making our paper goods perfect. Fabulous. Super-fantastic. I’m just at a standstill idea wise. I have tons of mock-ups, ideas, etc, but I’m too terrified to decide and follow through.
4. I need to talk to our head ceremony musician, but I waited too long. She just had a baby, so she’ll be out of commission wedding-talking-wise for a month or two. I need her guidance on what other musicians to hire, and about our ceremony music options. (And, also, what we can get away with playing at the church).
5. We still haven’t finalized the guest list. This is a big deal! Why can’t this get finished? It seems like we start, get frustrated, and then either everybody’s invited or nobody is. I’m afraid we’ll end up with such a random mix of people just out of our sheer frustration over the whole thing. Also, we have over 200 people on the guest list at this point, and we only want 100-125 to attend. Lots of cutting.
6. Need to book limos. Not sure why I haven’t done this. Fail, me, fail.
7. We also need to figure out how to beg the city to let us use the parking lot of the elementary school a few houses down. Our house is up on a hill, and there will be NO room for parking, so we need a space for people to park. We also just generally need to figure out the parking logistics.
8. Decide on bridesmaids dresses. I need to make up my mind on whether or not to do regular-land black dresses for them, or actual bridesmaids dresses.
9. I need to finish our wedding website. I don’t know why I’m having such a hard dang time just filling in basic information. I obsess over wording, I guess.

I think my lack of decision-making-skills is also coming from the fact that I don’t want to screw anything up. This is our one shot! We get to do this whole wedding thing once! See why I obsess?

Anybody else have random mental roadblocks when it comes to making wedding decisions? If so, how’d you get over or through it?