I am a bad bride with too many STDs.

So you know those Save the Date things? The ones that you’re supposed to send out, oh, roughly six months in advance of your wedding?

Holla, homegirl over here never made a decision, and it looks like it’s probably too late, or a moot point… at this point.

You see, I didn’t just not do them. (Double negative, ahoy!) I did a lot of them. Quite a lot, actually. My biggest problem is that I obsess and nitpick over any design work I do for myself. I can churn out stuff for other people– no problem! There is just some sort of roadblock for me when it comes to making decisions about our wedding, and the paper goods have had the biggest roadblock of all.

Let’s just take a look at a few, shall we?

First, the ones we’ve seen before. Looking back on these, I still really love them.

Then I got restless, because I couldn’t find anyone to print them to my liking in the appropriate timeslot, or so I thought. Our engagement pictures came in, and I made this one.

I got neurotic about the text coloring, so I moved on. I found the gorgeous work of MaeMae Paperie, and so I started playing with some vector drawings I had done as mock-ups for a series of etchings I made for my printmaking studio.

Then Bunny pointed out that if someone didn’t know about my crane thing, that, well, it sort of looked like a bagina. (Yes, I am calling it a bagina). I have to agree. Man down.

Anyway, moving along. I decided I was going to get my rear in gear and just order some postcards off of Moo and be done with it. Our stuff on the front, website on the back, kraft envelope, finito.

After a test run of those puppies with my trusty new printer, I decided that they were sort of “meh” when printed out. Just didn’t really do much for me… at all. Then, I printed out these, which were purely a joke.

It was a silly cut-paper scan that I had done from a printed-on-cheap-copy-paper-and-draft-setting of one of our engagement pictures. And it looked fantastic printed out. I loved it, JP loved it, Mom loved it… ok, you get it. It was loved.

I never pulled the trigger. Why? I have no idea. At this point, is it too late? We could have these in, printed, and ready to go in 10 days maximum, but, well, worth it?

So wonderful peeps, I am at a standstill. I do not know what to do. Should I order these last babies and be done with it? Should I scrap it all and just move on to invitations? Is it ridiculously too late? Has anyone else had some major trouble pulling the trigger when designing your own stuff? Did it drive you to the point of “can’t do a damned thing,” or did you man up and get the job done?

*Engagement photos were taken by the awesome Matt Miller, as if you didn’t know! All the rest is by me.