T minus 3 days

Our engagement shoot is on Sunday at 4pm. A little less than three days away, and I am totally freaking out. Like, hyperventilate-when-I-think-about-it-for-more-than-3-seconds freaking out. I still am not sure what I’m going to wear. I feel like there should be some super-amazing and perfect outfit that needs to be worn. I want to look my best. So, I ordered a few things from Banana Republic, Gap, and Old Navy hoping that I’d stumble upon this mythical outfit. Let me tell you that I don’t think that this mythical outfit exists for me. All of the dresses, even the “tall” ones, are really, really, really short. Also, if they fit in the body, they’re extra short. Otherwise, they’re too big. I was already going to wear skinny jeans and, well, some top or blazer. (But JP and I WILL NOT be matching as I accidentally planned). I also wanted a dressier outfit, hence the dress-ordering. There are two dresses that sort-of work, but they have aspects that make me really nervous. One is very fitted and the other is sleeveless. Oh, and they’re both almost-showing-my-butt short.Maybe I’ll wear a dress, maybe I’ll just wear jeans. Who knows at this point. I think that most of my nervousness is actually over my appearance. Not the clothes-appearance, but a bad body-image sort of deal. I’ve lost a whole lot of weight [read: over 30 lbs] and I still have about 40 lbs to go. I’m scared that I’ll be so concerned with how I look that I’ll just be a stiff robot. Or, I could run around with reckless abandon, have a ton of fun, but then be crushed to see how terrible I look in the photos. Going based off of that, I should wear something that has the most chance of being super-flattering, even if I’m rolling around like a moron. Even though I want to wear dresses, part of me knows that I’ll end up with the skinny-jeans option. I’d rather not look like a sausage or have trucker arms or flash my goonie all over the place. Anybody else get totally terrified about engagement pictures? I see so many people that are super excited, but so few that are scared. Please tell me that there are tons of scared people that got great results, and how said people combated the scared-ness.

Edit: Woops! I forgot to add on where the dresses were from. They’re both from Banana Republic. The exposed-zip dress can be found here, and the tiered dress can be found here.